Why I’m Starting To Write Online

I recently signed up for Dickie Bush & Nicolas Cole’s cohort-based course, Ship 30 for 30.

Here are three reasons why:

1. I lived in an abusive relationship and used writing as my coping mechanism. I would wake up at 3 am and write for an hour, fall asleep again, wake up at sunrise and shake my head in despair after reading what I wrote in secret under the blanket beside my snoring partner. The next night, I would repeat the same and again hate my moonlight-induced texts in the morning. I could not understand why my mind in the sunlight rejected the nightly flooding of my hurting heart. I joined Ship 30 for 30 to find out if my heart could shake hands and work in unison with my mind.
2. A friend of mine purchased me a book writing course ten months ago. After signing up, I had to write because I could not let her down. Like always, in the beginning, I was full of excitement, but that quickly turned into anxiety. The more I wrote, the more terrified I was to publish anything. Though I knew I loved writing, I didn’t believe in myself enough to publish any of my tear-stained texts. Why would anyone in their right mind want to read how many times I had been raped or beaten up or how many times I tried to leave? I joined Ship 30 for 30 to learn how to conquer my fear and not run away.
3. In December last year, I hit a brick wall. My book was still hanging from its final chapter. This was it, I thought. I would write now or never type again. I used all my money to purchase Ship 30 for 30, leaving $0,51 in my bank account, taking a considerable risk. I would have to get my ship sailing or sink trying because it was too late to back up in the middle of the ocean. I’ve informed too many people that I am doing this, and now I’m paddling for my life. I joined Ship 30 for 30 to find out if I could finish a project at least once in my life and say: I did it!

Over the next 30 days, I plan on writing about abuse, personal growth and setting sail into the scary unknown. Coming this far is already a triumph for a person used to failing and running away.

Join me on this adventure — and let me know if you have any questions! I’m excited (read: scared to bits) to start sharing my writing online.

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